We had already decided we weren't going to try for any more babies. But, it was really a hard thing to hear the Dr. tell me earlier today on the phone that it is in our best interest NOT to try again. I am OK with it being MY decision, not so much that it is now someone else's decision.
I can officially blame myself now for what happened. I don't care what anyone else says, I can blame myself. I have CHORIOAMNIONITIS.
I haven't done a lot of research on it yet, and some of what I read differs slightly from what the doctor told me on the phone. He believed this was a gentic thing carried by me with no explination as to why it did not surface until AFTER 2 healthy pregnancies. From what I read, it happens DURING pregnancy. Yes, I might be a carrier, but I don't think all of the pieces added up correctly from his description. Lots of information out there on it that I need to take the time to read.
The reason I said I can now blame myself?? Because we refused genetic testing early in BOTH pregnancies (with Ian & Owen and then with Maddox) because we had 2 healthy pregnancies with Isaac & Caleb. If we would have had the testing, then maybe we could have caught this early enough to treat it and I wouldn't be sitting here with 3 tiny rings around my neck.
I can officially blame myself now for what happened. I don't care what anyone else says, I can blame myself. I have CHORIOAMNIONITIS.
I haven't done a lot of research on it yet, and some of what I read differs slightly from what the doctor told me on the phone. He believed this was a gentic thing carried by me with no explination as to why it did not surface until AFTER 2 healthy pregnancies. From what I read, it happens DURING pregnancy. Yes, I might be a carrier, but I don't think all of the pieces added up correctly from his description. Lots of information out there on it that I need to take the time to read.
The reason I said I can now blame myself?? Because we refused genetic testing early in BOTH pregnancies (with Ian & Owen and then with Maddox) because we had 2 healthy pregnancies with Isaac & Caleb. If we would have had the testing, then maybe we could have caught this early enough to treat it and I wouldn't be sitting here with 3 tiny rings around my neck.
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