update for all.
It is somewhat ironic that I am sitting here writing on a blog about the adventures of rainbow children while I am being faced with the familiar situation that was June 24th, 2011.
This time is not a LOT different, but we do have SOME good on our side, for NOW.
I'm not being "optimistic" but I am also not going to be negative about it. I am chosing to be realistic. Depending on which ultrasound you go by, I am anywhere from 20 weeks & 1 day to 21 weeks and 2 days pregnant. Ironically, this is a HUGE deal because it makes a difference as to WHEN intervention for baby can begin. The nurses have been honest with us, that we are probably going off of the 20 weeks 1 day ultrasound because that is the most accurate gestational age of the baby. He is just MEASURING a little ahead. Which will come in handy IF we make it to 23-24 weeks.
BEST case scenario, we make it 23 weeks with me laying here virtually on my head. If we get to this point, steroid shots can be introduced to help lung growth in baby boy. From that point, ever day/week we can keep him in, the greater his chance of outside the womb survival will be.
WORST case scenario-my water breaks and we have baby boy now. This is the most LOGICAL thing that will happen given the fact that I am already so far dilated and my bag of water is already a ticking time bomb.
Many of you have asked me WHY this is happening and believe me, no one wants answers more than I do. Several of the doctors including the High Risk Doctor have thrown around the fact that I possible have an incompetant cervix. Big issue with this dignosis is that I had 2 healthy pregnancies PRIOR to the twins. The other option is that I have a uterine infection that is causing early labor. This is that one it SEEMS they are all leaning more towards. Apparently, all woman have this infection, it's just that some peoples bodies know how to fight it and others don't. MIne is one that doesnt'. I am sure so many factors have played a roll in this. Anything that has affected my body is a big deal right now and on the table to possibilities. Up to and including the car wreck, the tumor on my spine and the delivery of the twins and D&C that followed.
For right now, I can't express my gratitude for the prayers and thoughts. My sister said it best to Cris the other night-I didn't hear her say it so I am sure these were not her EXACT words-but the gist was-
While it wasn't ideal to have children @ 18 years old for Cris and I, it was very likely my body saying "have them now, because you won't be able to later".
I again am not sure which I would prefer, losing early in pregnancy or losing @ this stage. There are parts of this one that are harder than it was with Ian & Owen. It was suddent with them-and we didn't have a lot of time to process what was happening. With this little one, it's slowly progressing and there are SO MANY unkowns. THat is the hard part for me. I could still be here in 10 weeks pregnant with a healthy boy-or I could be stand up, my water break and have him in the next hour or so. There are too many unknowns.
For now, please keep the prayers coming. Please keep the open mind that anything could happen. I am trying my best to keep this little man in, but in reality my body is going to progress however it wants to.
This time is not a LOT different, but we do have SOME good on our side, for NOW.
I'm not being "optimistic" but I am also not going to be negative about it. I am chosing to be realistic. Depending on which ultrasound you go by, I am anywhere from 20 weeks & 1 day to 21 weeks and 2 days pregnant. Ironically, this is a HUGE deal because it makes a difference as to WHEN intervention for baby can begin. The nurses have been honest with us, that we are probably going off of the 20 weeks 1 day ultrasound because that is the most accurate gestational age of the baby. He is just MEASURING a little ahead. Which will come in handy IF we make it to 23-24 weeks.
BEST case scenario, we make it 23 weeks with me laying here virtually on my head. If we get to this point, steroid shots can be introduced to help lung growth in baby boy. From that point, ever day/week we can keep him in, the greater his chance of outside the womb survival will be.
WORST case scenario-my water breaks and we have baby boy now. This is the most LOGICAL thing that will happen given the fact that I am already so far dilated and my bag of water is already a ticking time bomb.
Many of you have asked me WHY this is happening and believe me, no one wants answers more than I do. Several of the doctors including the High Risk Doctor have thrown around the fact that I possible have an incompetant cervix. Big issue with this dignosis is that I had 2 healthy pregnancies PRIOR to the twins. The other option is that I have a uterine infection that is causing early labor. This is that one it SEEMS they are all leaning more towards. Apparently, all woman have this infection, it's just that some peoples bodies know how to fight it and others don't. MIne is one that doesnt'. I am sure so many factors have played a roll in this. Anything that has affected my body is a big deal right now and on the table to possibilities. Up to and including the car wreck, the tumor on my spine and the delivery of the twins and D&C that followed.
For right now, I can't express my gratitude for the prayers and thoughts. My sister said it best to Cris the other night-I didn't hear her say it so I am sure these were not her EXACT words-but the gist was-
While it wasn't ideal to have children @ 18 years old for Cris and I, it was very likely my body saying "have them now, because you won't be able to later".
I again am not sure which I would prefer, losing early in pregnancy or losing @ this stage. There are parts of this one that are harder than it was with Ian & Owen. It was suddent with them-and we didn't have a lot of time to process what was happening. With this little one, it's slowly progressing and there are SO MANY unkowns. THat is the hard part for me. I could still be here in 10 weeks pregnant with a healthy boy-or I could be stand up, my water break and have him in the next hour or so. There are too many unknowns.
For now, please keep the prayers coming. Please keep the open mind that anything could happen. I am trying my best to keep this little man in, but in reality my body is going to progress however it wants to.
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