Mothers Day

I have a taken a semi Hiatus from blogging over the last month.

Not because I haven’t had plenty to say, but because I’ve had plenty going on that finding the time to sit down & blog has been difficult.

First things first-It’s been a ROUGH month! Most of you that know me personally, know that I have been struggling with kidney stones for 3 weeks now. Finally on Wednesday, I had surgery to REMOVE the horrible stone that has been causing me to be in so much pain! Not that having a stent in my kidney/bladder region is a lot better than a stone, but at least we are on the tail end of the misery and there IS an end in sight (I HOPE nothing else goes wrong).

Secondly-WE CLOSED on the house in Richmond. We have been dealing with this stress for 3 years now, and it felt GREAT At the beginning of May to kiss that house GOOD BYE! We wish the new owners as much happiness in that house as we had (because we DID love the house). BUT we are glad to no longer be the owners!!!!! Praise GOD for that small miracle.

Thirdly-We had a “situation” with Caleb last month. I am NOT going to get into any details because this is a public forum and I don’t think that any emotional energy I put into this situation will make any difference. I also do not want to incriminate anyone that this situation involves-but I can say that while I don’t feel it was handled EXACTLY as I would have liked, it is over, and I am thankful for that!

Finally, Mothers Day-UUUUGGGHHHHHHH (insert lots of tears and kicking & screaming and falling out on the floor having a 2 year old meltdown right about now). I am D R E A D I N G mothers Day 2012. Not because I do not love all of the mothers in my life and am so thankful and grateful for them-but what a horrible reminder it is for me on this mothers day considering the last year.

Mothers Day 2011-I was happily and semi newly pregnant with my precious Ian & Owen. For all intents and purposes, I was a mother of 4 sons this time last mothers day-I was SO EXCITED that I was stepping into this journey. Now this Mothers day, I am reflecting on being a mother of 5 when I can only hold 2 of my children.

PLEASE do not think that this means I am not excited that I have my 2 babies to hold-But my BABIES are now almost 11 and just turned 7. They don’t NEED their mama anymore. Maybe they NEED me, but they just don’t realize it right now. I am so blessed beyond measure to have my sweet boys-believe me. My LIFE would not be complete without Isaac & Caleb & their beautiful hearts. This mother’s day feels that something is missing for me. I know exactly what it is too, and there isn’t a thing I can do about it.

To ALL of you mothers-of living children and of Angels. Happy Mothers Day.