Todays blog is a simple one, that will make perfect since to my other "moms of loss"
I was able to sit down today & unsubscribe to all of the email groups like motherhood maternity, gerber, babycenter & many others I'd been getting daily emails from. I guess I finally got tired of being reminded that I'm not pregnant anymore. =/
After doing this, I was able to sit down & drown my sorrows in a shared blizzard with Cris.
I know, sounds rediculous, but it was very hard to sit & do this as part of my will miss the babycenter.com updates-It was too much though, especially as I near my due date. So many of the other moms in the November twin group, have gone into labor this week. In 4 days, I"ve read 7 wonderful birth stories of beautiful, big, healthy full term twin births. After reading the 7th today, I decided it was doing me no good to read them. I'm not even sure why I tortured myself.
I sure wish everyone understood how I feel. I wish I could find the right words, or I could just stop feeling the way I feel. I am miserable. I'm finding it very hard to find joy in anything. I'm exhausted, I am feeling physical pain, I am distracted, lightheaded, heavy hearted & down right miserable.Woe is me I guess...this is life. This is MY life, my new life....This too shall pass though. I told my friend Mandy this morning, that I knew the second i woke up, today was going to be a tough day. I was right....I wish I wasn't right!
I was able to sit down today & unsubscribe to all of the email groups like motherhood maternity, gerber, babycenter & many others I'd been getting daily emails from. I guess I finally got tired of being reminded that I'm not pregnant anymore. =/
After doing this, I was able to sit down & drown my sorrows in a shared blizzard with Cris.
I know, sounds rediculous, but it was very hard to sit & do this as part of my will miss the babycenter.com updates-It was too much though, especially as I near my due date. So many of the other moms in the November twin group, have gone into labor this week. In 4 days, I"ve read 7 wonderful birth stories of beautiful, big, healthy full term twin births. After reading the 7th today, I decided it was doing me no good to read them. I'm not even sure why I tortured myself.
I sure wish everyone understood how I feel. I wish I could find the right words, or I could just stop feeling the way I feel. I am miserable. I'm finding it very hard to find joy in anything. I'm exhausted, I am feeling physical pain, I am distracted, lightheaded, heavy hearted & down right miserable.Woe is me I guess...this is life. This is MY life, my new life....This too shall pass though. I told my friend Mandy this morning, that I knew the second i woke up, today was going to be a tough day. I was right....I wish I wasn't right!
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