It's official...
Greif causes severe memory loss.
In the last 3 days, I have noticed a lot of memory problems. I forgot my moms & step dads anniversary, I forgot to pay 3 important bills, I forgot to call customers, I forgot to do things I told them I'd do, and I forgot to complete an obligation that I commited to. So, I can assure you, amoung the many other things that greif causes, memory loss is one of them.
Those other many things that I have noticed include-
Lack of energy & motivation. Lacking the ability to be joyful about situations I should really be joyful about. Complete & Utter distraction in all aspects of my life.
My main issue is, people just don't understand. I realize I have a lot on my plate right now-but that's not what is causing all of this. My mind is distracted and wrapped around this situation in my life-and it irriates me that people make that part of my life so much less than it is.
My life revolves around my family and my family revolves currently around the loss of 2 members of it. It's not ok, I am NOT ok, this situation is NOT ok with me. I am NOT dealing with it and that's just how it is. I'm to the point today where I've lost the patience to explain that when you tell me I look or sound tired-I AM tired. I am exhausted. It happens when you don't sleep. You don't sleep b/c you have nightmares, or you can't settle down because your brain doesn't stop. Everyone moves on...and I just can't. I can't move past this-and I don't care what anyone thinks. I just can't.
Greif causes severe memory loss.
In the last 3 days, I have noticed a lot of memory problems. I forgot my moms & step dads anniversary, I forgot to pay 3 important bills, I forgot to call customers, I forgot to do things I told them I'd do, and I forgot to complete an obligation that I commited to. So, I can assure you, amoung the many other things that greif causes, memory loss is one of them.
Those other many things that I have noticed include-
Lack of energy & motivation. Lacking the ability to be joyful about situations I should really be joyful about. Complete & Utter distraction in all aspects of my life.
My main issue is, people just don't understand. I realize I have a lot on my plate right now-but that's not what is causing all of this. My mind is distracted and wrapped around this situation in my life-and it irriates me that people make that part of my life so much less than it is.
My life revolves around my family and my family revolves currently around the loss of 2 members of it. It's not ok, I am NOT ok, this situation is NOT ok with me. I am NOT dealing with it and that's just how it is. I'm to the point today where I've lost the patience to explain that when you tell me I look or sound tired-I AM tired. I am exhausted. It happens when you don't sleep. You don't sleep b/c you have nightmares, or you can't settle down because your brain doesn't stop. Everyone moves on...and I just can't. I can't move past this-and I don't care what anyone thinks. I just can't.
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