I said I was going to change the dynamic of the blog a little bit to now focus on what it's like to have a rainbow pregnancy.
The words haven't come very easily as the last few weeks, I have definately struggled with juggling this news and continuing to grieve.
When it's your 1st pregnancy-you constantly worry about everything going on in and outside of your body. You worry about the things you're feeling, the way your energy, your body, your mind and everyting around you changes. If you're fortunate to have multiple pregnancies, they ALL come with their own sets of concerns but mostly they are the most joyous occassions of our lives.
However, if you have 2 normal pregnancies, and you were given two wonderfully healthy boys and then you had a THIRD healthy pregnancy that resulted in 2 more beautiful boy and it was taken from you-the 4th pregnancy makes it REALLY REALLY scary!
By Scary, I mean, every second of everyday I think about NOTHING but how this is going to turn out. All of the different roads it can take, all of the different things that could happen; good or bad. Most people have told me " youre so early, I wouldn't have told people yet".
We decided to share this news for so many reasons. ONe being, so that we can be surrounded by the same support system during this as we were during the loss of Ian & Owen. We also wanted to be able to express & share this process so that maybe, just maybe it can help someone else in the future that is going through a rainbow pregnancy.
Over the next few weeks, I hope to be able to log on here and tell you all of the wonderful blessings a rainbow pregnancy has to offer, so please continue those happy vibes & prayers!
The words haven't come very easily as the last few weeks, I have definately struggled with juggling this news and continuing to grieve.
When it's your 1st pregnancy-you constantly worry about everything going on in and outside of your body. You worry about the things you're feeling, the way your energy, your body, your mind and everyting around you changes. If you're fortunate to have multiple pregnancies, they ALL come with their own sets of concerns but mostly they are the most joyous occassions of our lives.
However, if you have 2 normal pregnancies, and you were given two wonderfully healthy boys and then you had a THIRD healthy pregnancy that resulted in 2 more beautiful boy and it was taken from you-the 4th pregnancy makes it REALLY REALLY scary!
By Scary, I mean, every second of everyday I think about NOTHING but how this is going to turn out. All of the different roads it can take, all of the different things that could happen; good or bad. Most people have told me " youre so early, I wouldn't have told people yet".
We decided to share this news for so many reasons. ONe being, so that we can be surrounded by the same support system during this as we were during the loss of Ian & Owen. We also wanted to be able to express & share this process so that maybe, just maybe it can help someone else in the future that is going through a rainbow pregnancy.
Over the next few weeks, I hope to be able to log on here and tell you all of the wonderful blessings a rainbow pregnancy has to offer, so please continue those happy vibes & prayers!
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