Eviction Date
We are 3 days away from original "eviction date".
The twins Due date is Wednesday-the 9th.
I can tell you right now, I'd like to take every calendar I can get my hands on & mark Wednesday completely off the calendar. But seeing how that's not an option, I've got a few days to figure out how I am going to deal with the day.
I have to work. I guess I COULD take the day off, but I don't see what this will help. My mind will be solely focused on Ian & Owen the entire day no matter if I am @ my desk distracted or doing anything else distracted.
There are lots of other "things" going on in my life right now. Many of which revolve around the kids & thinks going on in their lives. Daily, we struggle with Caleb being so much younger than his peers & the problems that come along with that in the learning process. We daily discuss with Isaac the importance of being a normal person in society. One that is caring, hardworking, honest & observant. We are fostering Jasmine, which you would think would be a simple task, but given a dog with so many health issue,s has proven to be a really big challenge. Then there is Shelby-that we constantly have to keep tabs on now that she's become a dissapearing from the fenced yard kind of dog. Then of course, you have Cris & I, and our constant acknowledgement that burying children is one of those things that so simply can break a marraige. It can break apart a family unit faster than you could imagine. It hasn't happened to us, and it will not happen to us-but we'd be silly to say that we don't see & Understand the stresses that we've dealt with and are stll dealing with are so enourmous, they change people.
In talking to my friend (Who I can't even begin to tell you how thankful I am for her). We were talking about my need to feel NORMAL again-and she said it best when she said this
":You need to be treated normal, and not like a china doll-because eventually they are going to drop you & break you. You are Raggedy Ann-resilient and totally washable".
SHe said it best-and she's more than likely EXACTY right. I haven't gotten to the "totally washable" part yet-but I must be pretty resilient-Someone must think so anyway!
So, here's to a week that is going to have it's ups & downs-but I fear it will be more downs than Ups this go-round. Welcome......to eviction week
The twins Due date is Wednesday-the 9th.
I can tell you right now, I'd like to take every calendar I can get my hands on & mark Wednesday completely off the calendar. But seeing how that's not an option, I've got a few days to figure out how I am going to deal with the day.
I have to work. I guess I COULD take the day off, but I don't see what this will help. My mind will be solely focused on Ian & Owen the entire day no matter if I am @ my desk distracted or doing anything else distracted.
There are lots of other "things" going on in my life right now. Many of which revolve around the kids & thinks going on in their lives. Daily, we struggle with Caleb being so much younger than his peers & the problems that come along with that in the learning process. We daily discuss with Isaac the importance of being a normal person in society. One that is caring, hardworking, honest & observant. We are fostering Jasmine, which you would think would be a simple task, but given a dog with so many health issue,s has proven to be a really big challenge. Then there is Shelby-that we constantly have to keep tabs on now that she's become a dissapearing from the fenced yard kind of dog. Then of course, you have Cris & I, and our constant acknowledgement that burying children is one of those things that so simply can break a marraige. It can break apart a family unit faster than you could imagine. It hasn't happened to us, and it will not happen to us-but we'd be silly to say that we don't see & Understand the stresses that we've dealt with and are stll dealing with are so enourmous, they change people.
In talking to my friend (Who I can't even begin to tell you how thankful I am for her). We were talking about my need to feel NORMAL again-and she said it best when she said this
":You need to be treated normal, and not like a china doll-because eventually they are going to drop you & break you. You are Raggedy Ann-resilient and totally washable".
SHe said it best-and she's more than likely EXACTY right. I haven't gotten to the "totally washable" part yet-but I must be pretty resilient-Someone must think so anyway!
So, here's to a week that is going to have it's ups & downs-but I fear it will be more downs than Ups this go-round. Welcome......to eviction week
Casey, we've never met, but I stumbled across your blog recently. You have a beautiful heart, overflowed by love and grief at the same time. Thank you for sharing it. My heart aches for you. God is still there. Keep holding on. I'm praying for you.
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