Disney

This week is a little bittersweet & emotional for me.

I took a bus shopping trip with mom this weekend. We had such a great time. It was a very long  & exhausting trip, but we really enjoyed some mother/daughter no kids time!

Now we are home and I am packing for Disney-a trip that is so exciting, yet so sad @ the same time. If this year had played out like it was supossed to, I wouldn't be going to disney because I would have newborns @ home. We had talked about & started planning for disney @ the begining of 2011 but stopped planning when we found out we were expecting. Now that Ian & Owen have been born & passed away, we re-planned disney and are headed there in less than 2 days. I am SO EXCITED, but I am also so sad because part of me wants to be home with my new born babies.
There has been a lot of stuff going on in our lives lately, and I've taken a break from writing to clear my head & get things straight.

I am super exciting to go upstairs & finish packing for our trip but will miss my boys so much! I will miss the ability to run by their grave everyday.....and I will be 13 hours away from them-as silly as that sounds...

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