Unfair Heartbreak

This has been such  a hard week emotionally.

My best friend is experiencing the emptiness of having a rainbow baby. I will spare her by not sharing her story-because this is such a private matter. However, this week has been so very difficult emotionally for everyone in this family/small group of friends. For the obvious reasons, we are all heartbroken. For deeper reasons I am feeling broken inside. While I know this HAS to be very difficult for her to talk to me about, because we were sharing this pregnancy together. We were so incredibly excited to share this experience together. It is so hard for me to hear her cry & tell me how she's feeling because in my heart I experienced a pain so much like hers. Each bit of grief is different, and it is different for each person, SO I will never say I understand nor will I say "I know how it feels". Because my situation was different than hers. Her situation is different than others. I just remember the empty feeling. I remember the kick in the gut feeling to find out things are NOT as perfectly fine as they seemed to be just 3 minutes earlier. Emotionally, it's HARD to watch my best friends heart break into a million pieces. I'd love to be able to hold her hand and tell her that in 4-5 months, it will all be ok. But, I can't tell her that, because I know it won't be.

The forefront of my mind this week has been her pain. It is so unfair for anyone to experience this.

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