**trigger** **warning** Whatever else to keep from reading if you're not interested...

Simple blog tonight-

I've had a lot of thinking to do over the last week & I've determined that this blog has been the very best therapy I've had in the last 7 months. I am a person, just like everyone else, and I refuse at this point in my life to be involved in anything that makes me feel like I am 15 & in High School again. When I am happy about what is going on in my life, I am going to sure as heck be happy & rejoice in it. When I am upset, I am going to deal with it however I best can-which has been the blog that I've written.

This blog had no intentions of turning into anything that hurt peoples feelings. This simply is somewhere that I can go to write out the things I feel to better cope with what I am dealing with. It has never been ABOUT anyone-other than myself and my family. I has never been directed at any one person, or group of people. Again, it is my place to talk freely & openly about whether this day was a good day of healing, or a horrible day full of emptiness and tears. I will NEVER EVER pretend that what we went through was no big deal. If I come across sometimes as selfish and needy-it's probably because I am feeling that way. If I come across pushy and mean-then It's probably because I am. I am human afterall and I am 28 years old. I am tired of apologizing for that.

So  please, do yourself a favor-If you are not interested in what I have to say, or how I am feeling, please do not read my blog and patronize me or my family. If this blog hurts you in some way, please just don't read it. No one is telling you you HAVE to read. Everyone is dealing with SOME kind of turmoil in their life-and LiftafterIMOJH is MY turmoil where i can be selfish and write what I want to. I left it as an open blog because I wanted to give people a place to read & validate things that were so often unspoken in their loss. This blog is about LOSS-it's not about making people happy-It's about MY emotions and my feelings-Not about others....It's not a comparison for others loss and it's not a place to put down others for how they handle things.

Please respect this space as a space for me to continue being ME and having the support of my feelings. I may not have a ton to say everyday regarding the twins and how I"m feeling-but I promise you-there are tons there-just not all into words yet.

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