Tomorrow, I turn 30....
This time last year...when I was turning 29 (and I was more OK about celebrating)...I was scared, timid and on edge.
This year, I have more constants than I had before. During my "30th" year.....I will gain a new niece. I will gain a new "nephew" from my Best friend. BUt let's face it...he will be mine =). I will watch my little sweet pea grow another year older and graduate elementary school. I will watch him take his 1st steps into middle school and into a huge world he doesn't yet know is waiting for him. I will watch my tiny child develop into a young man and learn so many new things....
But while i am watching all of this, my heart will always remember and wonder what Ian, Owen and Maddox would be doing on earth. Life is forever changing. THe best advice I can give MYSELF this year, is to live life in the present. If i do this, I am hoping that it will make me more prepared for the future, when it gets here.....
I am so thankful for that short time I spent with them, all 3 of them. I am thankful for the time I get with Isaac and Caleb because everyday it seems to be that they've grown even more and my time with them gets shorter and shorter.
I have decided that I can't spend my life worrying about the future. I have decided i can't spend my life worrying about the past. I have to get up everyday and worry about how i am going to be a good role model and good person for my sons. I need to worry about how i will provide for them emotionally and mentally. They are my world, my boys and me!
This time last year, I didn't know that in the next 36 hours, I was going to turn 29 and I was going to start my labor with Maddox. This week will be so emotional for me, even though everyday is emotional....annivesaries are hardest. BUT, I am thankful for the "new me". I am thankful for my new attitude and my new friends. I am thankful for my old friends and my family. I am thankful that I can choose to be in a crappy mood or I can choose to be in a good mood.
I want this year of 30, to be a more successful and fullfilling year than all of the other 29. I want this year of 30 to be one where I can look back and say "WOW, that was a great year". I am thankful that I now have a backbone and am able to stand up for myself. I am thankful for the decisions I have been able to make. I am also hopeful that the decisions i make will continue to benefit myself, my family and my future.
I pledge this year to be more involved in the community and serve on more committees and serve PEOPLE. I pledge this year to be a better friend, a better best friend, a better daughter and a better mother. I pledge to be a better co-worker and a better person from the inside out. I pledge to let the nonsense go and work on the inner self.
FOr those of you that read this.....something has touched my heart and I want everyone to share in this with me. In honor of Ian Owen and Maddox I am asking for support and help!
A girl I went to high school with, Kelly and her family are going through what most people including myself have no idea how to deal with. Her youngest child Stone is suffering from some serious health obstacles and this family is in need of the community support that we have. They are a young family, with a daughter and their son. Wonderful people and great parents. Please if you are on facebook-look up "prayers for baby stone". I am doing a collection donation drive that I hope to present to them this week for some financial assistance. We all need help from time to time. Kelly and Matt are doing everything right. They don't deserve to have to deal with all that has been thrown at them. BUT I do know from my experience...strength comes from places you never understand or expect. Help me out in support of them. Do so in honor of my 3 angels, or someone you know that has touched you!
This time last year...when I was turning 29 (and I was more OK about celebrating)...I was scared, timid and on edge.
This year, I have more constants than I had before. During my "30th" year.....I will gain a new niece. I will gain a new "nephew" from my Best friend. BUt let's face it...he will be mine =). I will watch my little sweet pea grow another year older and graduate elementary school. I will watch him take his 1st steps into middle school and into a huge world he doesn't yet know is waiting for him. I will watch my tiny child develop into a young man and learn so many new things....
But while i am watching all of this, my heart will always remember and wonder what Ian, Owen and Maddox would be doing on earth. Life is forever changing. THe best advice I can give MYSELF this year, is to live life in the present. If i do this, I am hoping that it will make me more prepared for the future, when it gets here.....
I am so thankful for that short time I spent with them, all 3 of them. I am thankful for the time I get with Isaac and Caleb because everyday it seems to be that they've grown even more and my time with them gets shorter and shorter.
I have decided that I can't spend my life worrying about the future. I have decided i can't spend my life worrying about the past. I have to get up everyday and worry about how i am going to be a good role model and good person for my sons. I need to worry about how i will provide for them emotionally and mentally. They are my world, my boys and me!
This time last year, I didn't know that in the next 36 hours, I was going to turn 29 and I was going to start my labor with Maddox. This week will be so emotional for me, even though everyday is emotional....annivesaries are hardest. BUT, I am thankful for the "new me". I am thankful for my new attitude and my new friends. I am thankful for my old friends and my family. I am thankful that I can choose to be in a crappy mood or I can choose to be in a good mood.
I want this year of 30, to be a more successful and fullfilling year than all of the other 29. I want this year of 30 to be one where I can look back and say "WOW, that was a great year". I am thankful that I now have a backbone and am able to stand up for myself. I am thankful for the decisions I have been able to make. I am also hopeful that the decisions i make will continue to benefit myself, my family and my future.
I pledge this year to be more involved in the community and serve on more committees and serve PEOPLE. I pledge this year to be a better friend, a better best friend, a better daughter and a better mother. I pledge to be a better co-worker and a better person from the inside out. I pledge to let the nonsense go and work on the inner self.
FOr those of you that read this.....something has touched my heart and I want everyone to share in this with me. In honor of Ian Owen and Maddox I am asking for support and help!
A girl I went to high school with, Kelly and her family are going through what most people including myself have no idea how to deal with. Her youngest child Stone is suffering from some serious health obstacles and this family is in need of the community support that we have. They are a young family, with a daughter and their son. Wonderful people and great parents. Please if you are on facebook-look up "prayers for baby stone". I am doing a collection donation drive that I hope to present to them this week for some financial assistance. We all need help from time to time. Kelly and Matt are doing everything right. They don't deserve to have to deal with all that has been thrown at them. BUT I do know from my experience...strength comes from places you never understand or expect. Help me out in support of them. Do so in honor of my 3 angels, or someone you know that has touched you!
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