Here’s a big
surprise for you…..
It still hurts!
Yes, time
passes and lives move on, but it still hurts. Deeply
I have
learned a lot about myself in the last 15 months. I have learned a lot about
the people in my life too, and a lot about the ones I do not want in my life.
There is the old saying about “Maybe it’s not everyone else, maybe it’s you”.
Well, maybe it is me! But if it is me, I am OK with that.
Yes, I’ve
changed. Yes, my ability to care deeply about things has gone out the window.
Yes, my tolerance for stupid is far less than it was a year ago and YES, I
don’t forgive easily and I don’t take the time to sort things out when there
seems to be a miscommunication because I have learned, that if I said it out
Loud, I more than likely meant it.
The same
things still bother me & some days much more than other days.
I’ve had a
lot more “woosaa” days lately as my patience has just been worn completely out.
I know the triggers of my emotional breaks, but I keep them to myself, because
I don’t want to hurt feelings. I listen, support & encourage where I can,
and then fall apart in private.
I wish I had
even ½ the strength and courage most people assume that I do.
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