Life After

We had a "not really snow yet snow day" on Friday! The county where we live closed schools because it was calling for snow. I am thankful that they did because infact it did snow. However, my thankfulness comes more in the way that I got to spend some special time with my boys. We started our morning with a pedicure *yes, a pedicure for my BOYS*-don't judge me! Then we went to Chuck-e-cheese for 2-3 hours until I felt it was best we leave to get home safetly. I know you're still stuck on the pedicure part....so let me explain. Last year (or year before), Caleb went with me one time because we were out running errands, I wanted a pedicure, I had my son, he wanted one, he got one. Well....lo and behold, the child loved it and couldn't get enough. He talked it up so much to Isaac that he then wanted one. So, I took him! It then became just a "thing we do". Do they color? You know you are thinking it... Why yes, yes they do! Caleb is way more excentric th...

“Adulthood is where dreams go to die”.   True or False?   This has been a big deal for me this week. Those 7 small words have really impacted my entire week. They have impacted my thought process; they have filled my mind and soul with questions and thought provoked conversations.   How this statement applies to my life:             I had big dreams. Dreams to play @ Juilliard. I had dreams to teach music at the high school or college level. My dreams died. However, in this death of a dream, came a true and wonderful miracle later to be named Isaac. My big dreams died, but when they did, new big dreams were born. After my initial shock of Isaacs arrival wore off, I longed for the big family, the perfectly manicured lawn, the freshly painted home and the always well behaved kids. Boy did that dream ALSO Die. My lawn is a mess. My house was freshly painted for about 3 days until we officially move...

I am GLAD Christmas is over!!!!   Not that I don’t appreciate the Holidays and especially what Christmas is ACTUALLY supposed to be all about. But the stress and the emptiness that has come along with it as an adult, I could do without each year!   For me, The Holidays have changed a lot and I am not a big fan of CHANGE! =)   Everyone gets older, traditions get fewer & the emptiness found is most people’s eyes around this time of year are disheartening. I think if I learned anything over this past season, it is that change sucks, but as we get older, change is necessary. There is always room for new traditions even though saying goodbye to the old ones is hard. I’ve had a control issue ever since the twins were born and died because I felt that is the point in my life where I lost control over situations and over my body, my mind, my emotions and my surroundings. I realize in hindsight (as so many of my friends continue to point out), that I ulti...