Life After

Tomorrow, I turn 30.... This time last year...when I was turning 29 (and I was more OK about celebrating)...I was scared, timid and on edge. This year, I have more constants than I had before. During my "30th" year.....I will gain a new niece. I will gain a new "nephew" from my Best friend. BUt let's face it...he will be mine =). I will watch my little sweet pea grow another year older and graduate elementary school. I will watch him take his 1st steps into middle school and into a huge world he doesn't yet know is waiting for him. I will watch my tiny child develop into a young man and learn so many new things.... But while i am watching all of this, my heart will always remember and wonder what Ian, Owen and Maddox would be doing on earth. Life is forever changing. THe best advice I can give MYSELF this year, is to live life in the present. If i do this, I am hoping that it will make me more prepared for the future, when it gets here..... I am so ...

I absolutely believe that “you only see what you want to see and hear what you want to hear”.   I am finding that to be truer the older I get. (I thought that should say more and more true, but apparently, truer is a word and it corrected me, so there you go).   I understand that to some, me turning 30 is nothing because 30 is still young. I agree, relatively, it really is. However, in the world I am living in; 30 is the new 90! That’s how I feel anyway!   I never would have believed you when I was 15 years old that you would tell me #1-that I would ever be 30, and #2-that my life would have been so full in so many ways.   Full of wonderful memories and things to be cherished   Full of worry, stress, sweat and tears   Full of angel wings and broken heart strings   Full of disappointment & betrayal   Full of empty promises and trials   Full of childhood spirit and proud mommy moment...