Life After

I’m going to start this blog by apologizing that I haven’t written in some time.   There have been numerous reasons for the absence, but mostly because I felt like it was important to step back for a few weeks and distract myself from the constant reminder that is my normal life.   One year ago, when I started writing this blog (which was literally a year ago this month), I never dreamed of how the last year would have been for our family. Not only was I mourning the death of Ian & Owen as it was so fresh on my heart this time last year, but I also didn’t realize that I was also in preparation to deal with yet another loss, of yet another beautiful angel boy. A Part of me feels so very blessed, so be the mother of 5 handsome little boys and A part of me feels sad that 3 of them only knew this cruel world for such a short time. The other rest of my feeling range from anger towards God, which I’ve made no secret, anger towards myself, which I’ve made no secre...