and please PLEASE do not take anything that I've written as saying that I am not thankful for everyone in my life-I love all of my friends and am so thankful for each of you & all that you're doing for our family. I am not taking anyof that for granted. I was simply just mouthing off about how I was feeling about things at the very second I was feeling them-please do not take anything personally as this is my space to just vent!

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